Rediscovering My Voice (and This Blog) After 14 Years

In the age of ChatGPT, will anyone even believe I wrote this on my own? And honestly—does it even matter?

My thoughts, opinions, and ideas are mine. If AI helps me say them better—so they flow smoothly, land clearly, and connect more deeply—then I’m all in. Yes, dear AI, please me.

Now, the real story: I stumbled upon this blog after 14 years. Fourteen! That’s a whole teenager's worth of time. For over a decade, I had completely forgotten about it. Understandable, considering everything that happened in my personal life. Life flipped overnight. My career took a detour. I went back to school. Got married. Had kids one after another—like a cow, honestly.

But here I am, 40 (yes, the ripe old age of 40), and I’ve finally come back to myself. I’m currently working in HR, a certified clinical hypnotherapist, and a part-time yoga teacher (more recreational and occasional than anything else). So yes, I’d say I’ve grown. I’ve evolved. And dare I say, progressed spiritually? Ha.

Today, I believe in:

Synchronicities

Hidden messages

The power of the mind

Taking breaks

Calling shit as shit

Releasing emotions

Putting yourself first (because you matter)

Kids changing your life (and driving you mad)

Being independent

Helping others

Self-respect

Boundaries

Saying no (still learning)

Forgiving your parents

Accepting that everyone’s vulnerable

...and the list keeps growing.

Basically, I’ve grown up. Though in my head? Still 28.

So watch this space for some life-changing content. Real stories. Raw moments. And hopefully, a few insights that make you feel less alone.

Thanks for reading. And welcome (back) to my journey.

How To Go About It..

Not that I'm a master on the knowledge of spirituality or intend to
guide anyone on the subject (not that I can not, I can't, coz I don'tknow. Plain n simple.) However, exploring the parallel way of life is so interesting, so refreshing that one can't help but wanting that
everyone should get to taste it at least once. Don't get me wrong, I'm not marketing any society or group here, but just spreading the idea
that being aware is what really matters..
It's strange to me when people directly relate spirituality with religion. If I tell someone that I'm spiritually inclined, the first question that is shot at my face is 'So which God do you believe in?''No one' I say awaiting the unavoidable. 'What? Then what makes you
say that you're spiritual?' 'Hmmm… Aunty, it's different for me.' I mean.. what the... Do I have to be a believer in Rama, Krishna or Sai
Baba for that matter, to be spiritual? I understand that religion gives you direction, a way to follow and fulfill your spiritual needs,
but can an atheist not be spiritual? (And I don't intend to use the
word in all it's harshness and reality.) Spirituality talks about the soul, the energy bodies, not about various Gods. Religion is very scientific, and spirituality just isn't. For me, at some point in far distance, there seems no difference between science and religion. One thing common between religion and science is that, both have no origin. Science depends on theories. The interesting thing about science is that origins reveal how things work. If you can follow particles to their origins, you can understand how inner space works. If you can follow the cosmic particles --galaxies, quasars, and black holes -- to their origins, you can understand how outer space works. When you put the two halves together with in-between space, or the observable universe, you can understand how the whole multiverse works. The problem is that no one has the lens or technology to observe the origins. And this is where theory takes over. The difference between science and religion is thats cience applies theory while religion applies faith. Both theory and faith, however, fall short of revealing origins. So in this regard, they're similar.
Spirituality is all about connecting with one's self and spreading
unrestricted, unselfish and unlimited love which comes easily from within you if you just try to understand people and not judge them fortheir acts. (I'm still trying to do that, but it's such a pain when an
office colleague irritates the living balls out of you) And that's
exactly what all the religions tell us to do, through various
messengers (Gods). God resides in each one of us, thus it's essential
to love each other prior to trying to seek peace in finding or connecting to 'God'. It's tougher to love than to hate, but isn't thatwhy the whole thing is so beautiful? Universe was a difficult place to create, but look how beautiful it is!
So the first step is to start spreading love and enjoying the unselfish act. This act itself will connect you to your inner self since you'll realize a lot of hidden potentials within you are unleashing, a better human will evolve out of you. You will know the changes and people will notice it too. Meditate to unleash the true YOU.

Spiritualy Awakened?!?

About two-and-a-half years back I developed this particular need to develop spiritually. I'm sure most of us have had this profound feeling or urge of wanting to know the unknown or to look within, find the answers to the unspoken.. basically to grow and connect ourselves to the ultimate soul, which is nothing unusual but certainly does arouse curiosity since our parents had different things on their mind at our age. Spirituality during their days was left to the oldies. It's not that strange either if you come to think of it, because considering the circumstances, it is the need of the hour. Monks however predicted years ago that spiritual awakening will astonishingly increase from the start of the second millenium.



As a child, I had many questions. On the whole I was very confused about God's existance. I never believed in Him, but never disbelieved either. Frequently asked if God was a man or a woman, although in Hinduism, there are many Goddesses too. But there is Jesus in Christianity, Prophet Mohammed in Islam, Gautam Budda in Buddhism and so on.. no Goddesses??!!

Hindu religion is often labeled as a religion of 330 million gods. This misunderstanding arises when people fail to grasp the symbolism of the Hindu pantheon. According to the Hindu scriptures, living beings are not apart from God, since He lives in each and every one of them in the form of atman. Thus each living being is a unique manifestation of God. In ancient times it was believed that there were 330 million living beings. This gave rise to the idea of 330 million deities or gods. Actually, this vast number of gods could not have been possibly worshipped, since 330 million names could not have been designed for them. The number 330 million was simply used to give a symbolic expression to the fundamental Hindu doctrine that God lives in the hearts of all living beings.



But why are we all considered as daities? Is it because we are considered to be ultimately connected to God or is it that we actually are Gods, living paralally on a vertical time line with the actual "Gods"? My reasoning is based on a lot of research, various question-answer sessions with established spiritually aware people, jurnols, news from Channeling sessions and last but not the least introspection, for I believe I must trust and not doubt such things. Sometimes you hear a thing and you feel that this sounds just right. I, for one, follow my heart a lot where such matters are considered. So if you are way practicle more than me and don't believe things without proper facts, don't read further.



The calamities, so called global warming can not be happening only because we have mistreated Earth, no doubt we have, but there has to be a deeper meaning behind all of this. Why else would there be such major changes all over the world in terms of attitude, climate, sun and Earth. The Earth has willingly started its journey into the Photon belt, which has brought along changes on itself and us. In simple words we are now entering the Golden period, closer to the central race or the "god", please remember that the central race is where we come from; and are them, only that we are living in a different time frame. Earth, my friends is the only planet which has humans who are also soul-carriers and function under free-will.



But returning to the question, why do we get this urge to become spiritually aware? Well, my guess is we need to and we can't survive our entry into Photon belt if we don't. our soul is already aware of the same since it has lived a million lives, however this is the first life for our mind. We are now connecting with our souls and what matters the most is that we're now listening to it too. It is pleading us to work for the shift and prepare ourselves for the grand new begening. So be ready my friends, and be thankful since we've chosen ourselves to witness this phenomenal event in the history of the 7 universes.

Why are we away from the Truth?

Sometimes... people around you make you wonder how far we are from THE truth. We have been made to start living and lead our lives in a particular style constrained by certain set of rules. A guide passed on to generations on 'How to Live and conduct oneself'. We have been fed since birth, a lecture on who should be important to us, how should we be treating them and how 'good' is good for us and 'bad' is bad for us. Frankly, I do not consider this as shitload.. only because it is meaningful to my elders. But I just can't help myself from thinking a bit differently. What I really want to do is follow my instincts, my heart as I know that I am guided by my higher souls.
I do know that this line of thought has been pondered over and discussed a lot. I won't want to talk about it too as I know that we all are 'aware' individuals. What I want to say here is that I'm trying to break out of a certain system.. a certain rule set.
If only we all were closer to THE truth, it wouldn't have been this difficult for me, for believe it or not, I have stayed with the 'guide' for 26 years which is why I can't help myself from thinking about everyone affected by my state if mind, be it happy or sad.

If only we could do what we truly wanted to do, what our heart suggested..

If only we didn't attach our happiness with others..

If only our schooling was a bit closer to the TRUTH.

First day at work is generally a li'l exciting, scary, non-eventful and JUDGEMENTFUL. That’s how it is for me at least (n I know it’s for you all as well (even though you may not accept it. (Screw U!)))


Actually I have never taken my "first day at work" seriously.


But now that I am on one, I'm hoping that everyone is my type. My type is anyone who tries to look/seek out his or her own type, scan people, become excited, wanting to start communication at the drop of a pen.. basically tries to fit in. To be freakingly honest I can only pull that act for about 1/2 a day after which i become my own boring self, who can NOT pretend anymore!!

I like the new place, people, new energy the whole works... I'm happy to be here mostly because of my ex-boss who is this cool guy I have so much in common with AND it's only coz of him that I agreed to take up this shit till I don’t find anything of my interest.
The first interaction I have in this new office is with this 40+ ex-anchor on spirituality (my fav. subject) which balances my hyper anxious self. The discussion went well... made a fan.. nothing unusual.. on a whole it was like a regular day except for more ppl to talk to, more energies to surf and more personalities to judge and more material to gossip on later. Yup that's what I do! I judge people! There, I said it.
Others are just normal breathing in and out people who do what they are told to do, eat at their own desks and some are adventurous enough to step out and eat their home made lunch at a borrowed table from "24 Seven". Nope, no one great, nothing interesting. Same Ol' Lame Ol'.

Anywhoo this 40+ becomes my new scapegoat (I decide I'll flaunt my knowledge to him when I have nothing else to do), my ex-boss is always there whenever I'm dying with boredom and my NEW boss is this super cool, ever smiling chap whom I get absolutely comfortable with in the first meeting itself. I decide to like this place but at the same time not be overly excited and presumptive on the first day itself.
On the whole I realize that even though the place is Ok, the work is strictly OK and the people are fine, I won't be here for long.

THAT was my first day.